Sunday, May 15, 2005

Just back home not long ago..... went Geylang with Rongyao, his wife and some friends to have frog leg porridge for our dinner just now.... so full man~ Then after we finished eating, Alex and Grace came along. So funny..... Alex just had his heart operation, and can't talk loudly. What happened to the "Loud Speaker" huh??? Hahahahaa..... really not use to him talking so softly lor~ Then after the rest of the guys went off..... me, Rongyao & Weiwei accompany Alex & Grace to have Teochew porridge at another street. Sick man lah... what to do? Have to eat light stuff lor~ ;p Nabei..... had our 2nd round when we reached there!!! That stupib Alex order a special "fish dish" for us to try. Almost vomit out all the frog legs & beer which we took earlier. Wah..... in the end, we stay there and talk cock till 12plus~

Went for a few interviews this week. Actually gonna sign confirmation letter for a "Land Banking" job this afternoon.... but in the end, back out cause' I find that the company is not "stable & reliable" think it just started about 6mths ago only..... and most importantly, this job got no basic pay!!!! How am I gonna survive without any basics if I don't have sales??? Siao!!!! Actually I'm hoping get a reply from a "certain company" soon cause' if I still don't get a reply from them by next wedensday, that means it's gone.....

Sighs..... I've been putting up a smily face for the whole day when actually I'm not happy at all!!!
Actually for the whole day, I was waiting for "her" call..... but it didn't happened and "she" really disappointed me lor. In the end, just received a sms from "her" telling me that "she" miss me~
Hahaahaha..... is this a joke or what???!! Is that all she want to said to me for the whole day??? What I want is a GF who can provide me with the love & care that I long for.... and not a girl whom I have to keep telling her what she should do to make me happy. Is that too much to ask for? Sighs...... I really don't know. I have high hope for this relationship, and even "her" cousin who is my buddy also starts "supporting" me now. I really hope things will turn out fine. Like what "she" said to my buddy, I'm starting to get paranoid nowadays cause' "she" can't always accompany me. Maybe she's right.... maybe it's just emotions taking over me.... too caught up in the sorrow and making me lost in the process...... or it's just maybe....? I really don't know what's wrong with me~ Sighs...... I've got my pride, I will not cry but it's making me weak........




~Why Do I Still Choose To Love Her When I Know Love Will Hurt So Much~

[Lonely James] -all right reserves- ">3:33 AM