Tuesday, May 31, 2005
Recently so much things had happened to me and was feeling quite down for the past few days. Think I'm going to suffering from love-sickness soon. Sighs..... not going to said more about it. Maybe those close friends of mine will know what I mean. Got myself a job recently, which pay quite well but sucks BIG TIME!!! Have to endure for awhile cause' I'm doing my "Da Ge" a favour by helping him out and thought of buying some clothes after getting my pay....... but guess all those money will goes to paying all my BILLS!!!! Walau.... the sight of it makes me wanna go CRAZY!!!!
Met Forest last night to have dinner.(Hehehee.... you scare?;p) and we went to Nooch at Paragon and I had Beef noodle soup. Hmmm.... yummy~ After that we went my friend pub at Boat Quay. Walau..... that stupib girl drank so little, whereas I drank like a mad man trying to drown his sorrow. What is this? 2 jugs of "extra volka" 7-up and 2 glasses of "super thick long island tea" is all I need to knock myself out. I end up vomitted and lying on the floor of my void-deck after sending her home..... luckily I'm still sober enough to call my brother and asked him to come down and carry me home...... if not, I think it's either those aunties going for morning exercise or road sweeper will have drag me home instead of my brother!!!! Woke up this afternoon and found alot of bruises on my body.... think it's the outcome of not been able to walk properly! Even till now, I'm still suffering from the hangover while typing this! But overall very FUN!!! Cause' drinking can makes me forget all about my problems! Hey, Horny!!!! Don't forget about "Devil's!" "Devil's!" "Devil's!"Hahahahaa.....
Was browsing through friendster this afternoon..... and I suddendly chance upon a girl..... a girl who will always hold a special place in my heart and had never really been replaced..... she was my ex-girlfriend and we used to be together for about 6years plus. She's the one who really show me what love truely means..... but due to my immaturity and wildful life, we broke off in year 2002. We only met once after all these years, and that was afew years back during a friend birthday party. After that night, we never seen each other ever again...... years passed.... all the hatred and love I had for her are gone. When I looked at her friendster pictures now, only memories stayed on..... Even till now, all my nuts friends will called me whenever they saw her! And I don't understand why also???!! Maybe they still think that I haven move on or whatsoever. Hahahaa.... been wondering, what will become to us had we stay on, in this relationship. Think we would have get married and have children now. Hahahaha...... and yeah, married she did! But not to me! Anyway, heard from my friends that she's married to a certain "friend" of mine and they also had a beautiful daughter now. Just wanna wish her all the best in whatever she do......
Saw a quote online and I find it quite true to a "certain extend", so I decided to post it up......
........................................................................................................................................................................
"Happily ever after" only happens in fairy tales. In reality, sad to said....... it's always a sad ending. No matter how happy a relationship could be...... that's only the process. The ending will always be sad. It's either a breakoff or one party leaving. Leaving as in death.....
~There Are Nothing Permanent Except Change...... Are You As Happy As What You Want Today?~
[Lonely James] -all right reserves- ">8:59 PM