Monday, February 21, 2005
Yawnz~ Sooo tired... just finished watching "Black Hawk Down". It's such a GOOD
MOVIE!!! What a tiring day... can you imagine? Sleep at 7plus in the morning, and woke up at
9.15 a.m. Actually waited for "someone" last night, nabei... after waiting for a few hours... "She"
sms and told me that she won't be home so early... and ask me go and sleep 1st lor...*FOOK*!!!
Anyway, went to bedok to help my cousin to shift house today... so many things to
carry lor! Almost fainted.... when I saw so many pairs of shoes and belongings! Most of them
belongs to my Aunty Jenny, she's such a shopping Freak!!! If I'm her husband, I'll scold her like
a mad dog lor!!! Coz she always brought alot of things without using it!!(What a waste of money)
Finally finished
moving those stuffs at about 5plus... rest awhile, then we went to Toa Payoh
and had our dinner. Toa Payoh is like a "Sad Place" for me.... always think of the "past" when
I'm there....(Where we had our dinner there, having KFC & sending "her" home by bus at the
interchange. etc... thiugh It's just a little things but It mean sooo sooo much to me!!!) Sighs....
Aiyah! Must stop brooding over spilled milk lah!!! Pui!!! Hahahahahaa...okie okie.....
my eyes are closing soon & tomorrow still have to wake up early. Sianz~
~Human Are Like Snowflakes.... Each Unique In Their Own Way~
[Lonely James] -all right reserves- ">2:22 AM
Sunday, February 20, 2005
What is love??? Sighs... don;t know why recently, so many friends around me got
relationship problems??? 1st ME!!! Then my bro, Jonathan... then another bro, Eric... then
Chanel... then now, Candy!!! Hey!!! What's happening manz???!! I thought "Love" suppose to be
sweet & wonderful? But why everyone feeling so SAD & HURT??? Can anyone give me an
answer??? Lame~
Been wondering how is Chanel feeling now... she's the one whom I worried most...
always do those "stupib things", hehehee...(I mean last time lah... after "James") ;p Anyway,
really hope that she's fine...
Going to bedok reservoir tomorrow (I mean later) to help my cousin shift house. He
called me just now, and I agreed without second thought, sighs... I'm so tired... but bo bian... he's
my closest cousin and I can't turn him down. Actually It's my old office... got so many memories
there... but too bad, going to sell to others le...
~Exactly One More Month To My Birthday~
[Lonely James] -all right reserves- ">1:19 AM
Saturday, February 19, 2005
Why am I doing something that I don't want to do? Why do I still want you?
Why am I still waiting messages from you? Why am I still missing you?
Why am I still dreaming of you? Why am I still here writting and thinking about you?
I feel so bad deep in my heart, like the shadow has fallen down on me, I cannot see
the bright spot in my life, I'm so tired of loving and I don't wanna be. Being far from you tears
me inside... and the pain is too hard to bear.... I wish you could hold me in your arms, With your
sweet kisses show me that you care... every breath I take, torture I receive, It reminds me that
all of this is so real... and while the tears are rolling down my face... I know you don't love me
anymore nor ever will... coz I had hurt you so deeply...."Deardear", It's so damn hard to be
alone, It hurts me so much to feel this way, I keep on hoping that you love me again and that
you are just too afraid to say.
With broken heart, I'm trying to go on, I'll keep on living, but my soul is dead. Your
smile will remain the part of me and your eyes will always make me sad! Remember "What
Happened" on 31th dec 2004? But still I LOVE YOU. My heart has truly broken Into pieces
unfixable... I want you to know how much I LOVE YOU... but won't have the chance to said it
anymore... I remember when we used to touch the feeling that ran through my very veins... But
now my heart is broken... I can't breath I can't see... All I want is you to come back to me... You
are my life my mind and my very soul and right now I do anything to show you how much I
want you.
But I can't find my way and you haven't come to find me.But I will wait untill that day
where you find me and my love again Find your way my love, because my heart is breaking....
~Love Hurts~
[Lonely James] -all right reserves- ">11:38 PM
Friday, February 18, 2005
Wow~ Finally got a blog of my own! Hahahaaa...(Although I know I'm an OLD MAN
now) Would like to Thank a friend here... CANDY!!! Without you, there will be no b;og! Ya, I
know I'm demanding, Heehee... but anyway, thanks for yr help!!! ;p Actually, the purpose of me
doing this blog thing is because I got alots of things to said to "someone".... but I know, "she" will
not listen to me anymore... so here I am(An Old Man) penning down all my "thoughts &
feelings" through this blog thing.... hope it can cure the hurts & pains that I've been through for
the past one month plus.... that's all for now.....~Tata~
~I Never Hope To Be The First Place In Your Heart.... But I Wish To Be The Last Man In Your Life~
[Lonely James] -all right reserves- ">8:19 PM